I'm Surprised..........

I'm surprised I don't have HIV or AIDS. I know, that's a very bold statement for me to say.  What are my friends going to think when they read this?  What would my mother and father say if they read this post, or heard it thru the grapevine (especially since they both live in a small town where everybody knows everybody)?  But seriously, I'm blessed, yet I'm still surprised that I don't have HIV or AIDS. I thank God that I don't, but boy those insecurities will do a number on a young woman.
I was in college and all of these fine men were everywhere I looked, but I didn't really know what I was looking for, so I just took whatever was given to me - WRONG move!  Honestly, I was looking for love and fun, and I had had both of those things at one point, but for some odd reason I got bored with both love and fun, so I decided to step out into the world and find the love and fun that I thought I had been missing out on - I was clueless!  I had convinced myself that sex was going to bring me the joy, love and fun that I had been missing, but it didn't.  Sex didn't even get me a nice date most of the time.  And to make matters worse, I was having sex and thought that I was untouchable - BOY was I stupid.  SMH. 
Everytime a young woman allows a man to ENTER her body, she's allowing all of his past escapades, his troubles, his demons to enter into her spirit and if she's not strong enough, she will become a victim.  When I say victim, I don't mean that the guy necessarily did anything wrong, besides, she had to agree to have sex with him right? Yes!  What I mean is that she has lost a piece of herself and earned a piece of him, so now when he discards her like the trash she feels like after the sex is over, the next man OR woman is going to have to deal with her and the mess the other guy let behind - to me that's a victim.  In fact, the next person might be considered a victim as well, because if they can put up with her troubles they may experience their own pain along the way.