There Were Some "Good" Times..................

There were good times, not every moment of that relationship was horrible.  This is a photo of me when I had considered modeling, but I was too intimated by the idea that I wouldn't be good enough to model for real.  I took this picture in order to produce a suitable portfolio for America's Next Top Model - the petite model edition.  Oh man, I think we were fresh in our relationship at this point, or maybe this was just before the break-up, but I was alright, I was still good.
There were good times in our relationship, we started off really well, at least it was well enough for me at that point.  I didn't have any standards in place in order to know what I was willing to accept and to not accept, but thanks to the at relationship, I have standards now.  I would hear alot of people talk about "having standards", but if you didn't grow up with standards, how in the hell are you going to produce standards without being exposed to some?  That was the problem, I was never exposed to standards!  Seriously!  So I didn't know how to be treated because no one had ever told me how a guy was supposed to treat me.  Isn't that crazy!?  I took me going thru Hell and back, in order to finally know what standards are and to finally develop my own.  Oh my God, I had ZERO standards for a very long time, so as you can imagine, I was going thru it for a very long time.  I was being used and abused, but instead of seeking help, I was settling for whatever was given to me, as long as it didn't resemble the things that I had seen happen to my mother.
I'm thankful for the good times that I shared with Guy, it proved to me that he wasn't a completely bad person, instead, he was a person that was lost and he needed help finding his way, unfortunately, I took it upon myself to be the person to help him find his way.  WRONG MOVE!  Ladies!  If you learn nothing else from my story, my struggle, PLEASE learn this:  It Is NO'T your duty to help a man find his way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  If his mother couldn't do it, and he hasn't enlisted God's help, then by all means, RUN THE OTHER WAY! Please run, you cannot fix in a few months, what his parents failed to teach him his entire life.  Ladies, DON'T rely on the Good Times, especially if the good times do not outweigh the bad times.
We did have some "Good" times, but I wish I had known that the Good Times were not enough.