A lot of times I meet people who have no problem acting phony or being fake to my face, but as soon as I can turn my back to them they are ready to attack me, attack my words, attack my resume, attack my motivation. This is one reason I didn't let a lot of people into my world when I was going thru. The following quote is very, VERY true: "If they talk WITH you, they will TALK about you." What did I look like allowing a lot of people into my personal struggles, knowing that some people only wanted to know what was going on so that they could report my business as if they could paid for it? You can miss me with the fakery, you can miss me with the bullshit, just miss me with all of that. I learned a long time ago that everybody skinning and grinning in your face wasn't my friend. My mama taught me to watch people and so when I was going thru one of the rough patches in my life, I figured I could handle it alone because not everyone had my best interest at heart. However, there were some individuals in my life who cared so much about my well being that they risked our friendship in order to try and knock some sense into my head.
My sister was the first person to be like, "C, why are you staying with him"? I'd be like, "Because I love him, blah, blah, blah".............
My sorority sister would try to slip some advice in every now and then, but she knew that I would always do what I wanted to do in the, but that never made her stop trying.
Another sorority sister didn't give a damn about my feelings and always asked thought provoking questions, so much so that I tried avoiding her and her questions. I didn't want to think about the horrible decisions I had been making.
It was because of these few people, a few others and especially God, that I was able to pull myself out of the ditch of abused love. It is because of them that I am here today.
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